after thinking about my last post, i’ve decided that it’s inevitable. if i am to continue to publicly display my work, then biting is bound to happen and i have to accept it. it’s wasted energy to be angry about it but there are times when you gotta put it out there. i know i’m not original either, but still – the things that come out of one’s mind and how it’s translated/interpreted into something visual, is pretty unique; even if the concept or theme is derived from somewhere it’s infused with personal taste & experience. for instance, if you click on the blogs of my artistic friends, you will see how amazing & talented each artist is; you recognize their style and know that it’s completely theirs. it’s backed by years of experience. the person who simply takes another person’s style is only fooling themselves.

so i’ve come to the conclusion that even though biters/copycats suck, i guess having them around is a good thing; competition forces us to change and evolve our art to a higher level.

bring it.

if someone you know is copying you? maybe the person is not fully aware that they are, but you can definitely see it in their work. do you:

a) confront the person & tell them to stop copying most EVERYTHING that you do

b) ignore it and step it up. take your art, your style to another level where it will take some time before they start copying you again

c) be flattered / quit tripping / get over yourself / you are overthinking, over-analyzing this too much again / move on / nothing is original / we are all copies of those who came before us

i just want to say that i really hate having an ego; it rears its ugly head from time to time and turns me into a hateful, resentful human being. but hey at least i admit it. i also believe i have valid reasons; i resent that i worked hard and put in years to develop my style only for this person to take it and receive instant glory, because they are more popular than i am and have more friends than i do. i wish i didn’t think about this stuff but unfortunately i do. the graffiti subculture raised me to have an ego and i’m trying to undo it but it’s proving to be difficult. the creator made us this way; he/she/it made us to be walking contradictions – to be full of peace, love, happiness but to also have chaos, hate, destruction and a free will.

i am going to start drawing not-so-pretty things, like penises and satanic faces. i wonder if this person will copy me then. there, i finally said it.

today my husband is another year older; he doesn’t like his face to be shown so here is a really quick, digital drawing i made for him (hopefully he won’t mind):

also my parent’s dog Chubby died today. RIP doggy, we’ll miss you pitter pattering around the house.

because i love collecting images, i got a tumblr account. so far i like it. there’s some bugs here and there but overall it’s pretty easy to use. i’m going to stay anonymous for now. hooray for another timewaster!

thanks to the lovely Red Dodge for finding me & putting me on. i got to do my own layout too. check out Garage Magazine online.

sometimes being anonymous is so much better.

can’t sleep, as usual. image hunting and doing some “blog maintenance” – reading & deleting posts that i think made me sound dumb and maybe revealing too much of my inner dork. geez, sorry to have subjected you to that.

btw, i still need a job. just throwing it out to the universe, again.

+ Although I’ve had my low moments, I refuse to feel sorry for myself. I hope I can look back at this time and say that I was at my most creative. “Funemployment” as some would say.

+ I still have a roof over my head. I’m seeing, breathing, talking, walking, able to create. I’m alive.

+ Even though my situation sucks, I know there are people worse off than me. I have lots to be thankful for.

+ I’ll probably be “blogging” a lot. I’ve been cooped up in the house so as not to spend money on gas, food, drinks, etc.