_ another painting i did recently, not the best one but this is my favorite for some reason.
_ not much to report, other than i’m working again; it’s been 3 months.
_ i learned that in my 11 months of unemployment (by my own choice) that i’m better suited for the 9-5er life than the freelance life. i like the regular paycheck and believe it or not (as mundane as it sounds), i like having a routine. i had to be out of work for some time in order to appreciate that. i constantly felt anxious wondering where my next paycheck was going to come from. not having money sucks too.
_ i stopped chasing my dream of wanting to be a tattoo artist; that was DUMB. but then again, at the very least i tried; even though looking back, i feel super embarrassed that i imposed myself on people. thanks again to those who put up with me while i tried to “live the dream”. ha
_ in the past, i used this blog to vent about my previous job. for once i like my job and the people i work with, so no complaints here. i’m not making as much as i used to, but then i’m not that stressed out either.
_life is good. i miss my mom, especially when i’m alone with my thoughts. i often wonder if she is disappointed that i didn’t turn out the way she wanted me to be. does a spirit retain their individuality through the afterlife, or does it lose its sense of “self” once it leaves the body and returns to a universal, cosmic life force?

i guess, in the deep crevices of our psyche…we still want our parents’ approval.

4:45am

another painting i did recently.

a new painting i did recently

the first one i posted, the thumb was way out of proportion. i think this would make a great business card. too bad people most people would find this image “weird”.

I have another interview over at The Artillerist, a new art resource website some friends of mine are starting up.

Today would’ve been my mom’s 60th birthday. Happy Birthday Mom, life hasn’t been the same without you. I am alive yet there are days when I feel dead inside. Missing you every day.

painted a couple of weeks ago. there was an open spot at Manual Arts High School and so i painted a girl. background & letterforms by Skypage. view it large here.

some type i hand-drew for my friend’s blog, i got a free lunch out of it (woohoo!). if you like images and latin phrases check out Behold A Pale White Horse

pirates & gypsies. FTW

while trying to get into tattooing last year, i did some drawings. here’s one of them. i might as well scan & post them since they are collecting dust.

by the way, while looking for a job online the other day someone replied and told me that my design portfolio was “sub-standard”.

also, i finally got Adobe CS4 installed on to my computer and just found out that they are now releasing CS5. who has money to keep up with all their damn upgrades?

welcome to my reality, FML. sometimes i wish i had picked a more practical career path, but what exactly would that be? i’m not good at anything else.

i am really going to have to step it up.