I’m gonna need some loud music to keep me going today. No rest for the tired and weary. I knew I should’ve worked late yesterday; now I’m behind and screwed, again. Fuck it, I should stop caring. Can’t please them all, right?

 

On the one hand, you try to see their point of view, and because they’re the art or creative director over you, they have to push you to produce your best, because it reflects on them.

On the other hand, you’re on the brink of madness and you feel like pulling your hair out because it never ends. You go back and forth between creative changes and sometimes you say to yourself ‘this is my personal hell’ and even though you keep chanting to yourself “i want to die, i want to die, i want to die” you’re still alive, you’re still here, you still have to show it to them and go round after round.

 And then you don’t know what to do with yourself so you just end up blogging about it. 

I HAVEN’T HAD TO TIME TO BLOG…I’VE BEEN WORKING LATE & BUSTING MY ASS OFF THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS ON SOME CHEESY, HISTORICALLY INACCURATE MOVIE TITLE THAT I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE DOING (ALONG WITH OTHER EXTREMELY TEDIOUS TASKS; I SERIOUSLY WANTED TO DIE THIS WEEK); BUT SINCE I AM THE MODEL EMPLOYEE (EVEN THOUGH NO ONE NOTICES) I GIVE MY JOB 110 PERCENT NO MATTER WHAT…SO INSTEAD I’LL JUST POST A MUSIC VIDEO FROM DM. HAVE A FANTASTIC FRIDAY EVERYONE.

- So sadly, I had to come back to myspace. It wasn’t my personal choice though! I do web design on the side sometimes, and my client’s newer photos are on myspace; I forgot to put them on his website. That sucks, I totally forgot, I felt real shitty, and so I had to get back on there. I was doing so good too; I had managed to stay away for a whole month; my goal was to stay away for 6 months, or better yet, not ever come back again. Ah, fuck it. So expect a friend request from me (that’s if i can find you).

 - I’m at work when most people have the day off. Fuck, I’m getting tired of being here. And, I’m rolling solo in my department today. Fanfuckingtastic.

- I took a class over the weekend; on the first day I felt like I was a little too advanced for it; 2nd day was better and I learned something that could be useful to my job and it was inspiring to see what other people came up with using the same assets. People were amazed that I had an actual job in the entertainment industry and asked me some questions. It made me realize that I had gained so much knowledge from just working.

- I have some gripes about my current living situation. I told myself that I would keep my negativity & complaining to a minimum this year; BUT…if some other bullshit happens and it gets really out of control to the point where our stuff gets damaged, we’re out. 

- I’m in the mood for some ramen since it’s cold and I’m starting to feel sick. Photo courtesy of http://biggestmenu.com

HAPPY CAPS LOCK FRIDAY!!

1. I’M LOW ON FUNDS BECAUSE I SPENT WAY TOO MUCH MONEY IN THE LAST FEW MONTHS. GOTTA RECOVER FROM IT NOW.

2. TAKING A WEB DEVELOPMENT CLASS NEXT WEEK. I HOPE I LEARN SOMETHING NEW. EDIT: JUST FOUND OUT THAT CLASS GOT CANCELLED. GONNA FIND ANOTHER CLASS TO TAKE I GUESS. A FINAL CUT PRO CLASS OR ADVANCED MOTION GRAPHICS MAYBE? OR SAVE MONEY AND BUY A BOOK ON THE SUBJECT INSTEAD?

3. GOT A NEW STICKER MADE. 500 STICKERS ONLY THOUGH; RED & BLACK. I GOT SICK OF THE LAST ONE I DID WHICH WAS A 1000. GOT IT DONE THROUGH STICKY RICK’S.

4. CONTINUOUS LEARNING AND KEEPING MY MIND OCCUPIED. THIS PROBABLY SOUNDS HELLA CORNY BUT I’VE BEEN TRYING TO GET MY CREATIVITY BACK; SO I STARTED READING THE ARTIST’S WAY BOOK. I DON’T KNOW IF IT’S HELPING ME, BUT IT’S DOING SOMETHING. I’LL KEEP YOU POSTED.

5. HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE DOING WELL. WHEN I’M NOT BEING SELF-ABSORBED I ACTUALLY DO THINK OF YOU GUYS; THANKS FOR VISITING THIS BLOG OF MINE. I’M FEELING OUT OF THE LOOP BECAUSE I’M NOT ON MYSPACE. BUT IS IT REALLY WORTH COMING BACK TO SEE WHAT MY GOOD FRIENDS ARE UP TO, AND AT THE SAME BE SURROUNDED BY TOYS, HOODRATS, IDIOTS, CHILD MOLESTERS AND PEOPLE WHOSE OPINIONS AND “MOODS” I DON’T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT? I’M STILL DEBATING IT.

6. THIS WORDPRESS BLOGGING TOOL IS ANNOYING AND BUGGY.  

I know you’re reading this and I hope you know I miss you, but I have no desire to get back on myspace anytime soon so I hope you understand. I think I am turning into a real recluse! If you have a cool little blog outside of myspace, please let me know; I would love to link you and leave you rad little comments too.

Your fried chicken skin lovin’ friend for life,
Sherm

p.s. I gotta leave this wtf picture for you. (found on hurtyoubad.com)

I’m just going to keep editing this post in an attempt to recap 2007 in photos.

Today marks a year since my mom passed away. She liked Thomas Kinkade’s artwork a lot. She was Christian; always prayed for us and had peaceful images with prayers framed and hung up in her house. She also played the piano and enjoyed having company over. Glad you are resting now, Mom. We love and miss you so much.

Goodbye Myspace…I think I am REALLY over it this time around. I’m sure my real friends will find me regardless.

Hello thirties.