_ another painting i did recently, not the best one but this is my favorite for some reason.
_ not much to report, other than i’m working again; it’s been 3 months.
_ i learned that in my 11 months of unemployment (by my own choice) that i’m better suited for the 9-5er life than the freelance life. i like the regular paycheck and believe it or not (as mundane as it sounds), i like having a routine. i had to be out of work for some time in order to appreciate that. i constantly felt anxious wondering where my next paycheck was going to come from. not having money sucks too.
_ i stopped chasing my dream of wanting to be a tattoo artist; that was DUMB. but then again, at the very least i tried; even though looking back, i feel super embarrassed that i imposed myself on people. thanks again to those who put up with me while i tried to “live the dream”. ha
_ in the past, i used this blog to vent about my previous job. for once i like my job and the people i work with, so no complaints here. i’m not making as much as i used to, but then i’m not that stressed out either.
_life is good. i miss my mom, especially when i’m alone with my thoughts. i often wonder if she is disappointed that i didn’t turn out the way she wanted me to be. does a spirit retain their individuality through the afterlife, or does it lose its sense of “self” once it leaves the body and returns to a universal, cosmic life force?

i guess, in the deep crevices of our psyche…we still want our parents’ approval.

4:45am

another painting i did recently.

a new painting i did recently

thank you Mitsy for this. oh and RIP Gary Coleman too. the cycle of life and death continues on.

copied & pasted from Wikipedia:

Automatic drawing (distinguished from drawn expression of mediums) was developed by the surrealists, as a means of expressing the subconscious. In automatic drawing, the hand is allowed to move ‘randomly‘ across the paper. In applying chance and accident to mark-making, drawing is to a large extent freed of rational control. Hence the drawing produced may be attributed in part to the subconscious and may reveal something of the psyche, which would otherwise be repressed. Examples of automatic drawing were produced by mediums and practitioners of the psychic arts. It was thought by some Spiritualists to be a spirit control that was producing the drawing whilst physically taking control of the medium’s body.

Dictionary: Surrealism, n. Pure psychic automatism, by which one proposes to express, either verbally, in writing, or by any other manner, the real functioning of thought. Dictation of thought in the absence of all control exercised by reason, outside of all aesthetic and moral preoccupation.

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I want my work to go here eventually, right now my rational mind and overthinking tendencies tend to get in the way, A LOT.

So odd, I just watched Frazetta on Netflix a couple of weeks ago. RIP

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I have another interview over at The Artillerist, a new art resource website some friends of mine are starting up.

painted a couple of weeks ago. there was an open spot at Manual Arts High School and so i painted a girl. background & letterforms by Skypage. view it large here.