nothingness
September 3rd, 2010
_ another painting i did recently, not the best one but this is my favorite for some reason.
_ not much to report, other than i’m working again; it’s been 3 months.
_ i learned that in my 11 months of unemployment (by my own choice) that i’m better suited for the 9-5er life than the freelance life. i like the regular paycheck and believe it or not (as mundane as it sounds), i like having a routine. i had to be out of work for some time in order to appreciate that. i constantly felt anxious wondering where my next paycheck was going to come from. not having money sucks too.
_ i stopped chasing my dream of wanting to be a tattoo artist; that was DUMB. but then again, at the very least i tried; even though looking back, i feel super embarrassed that i imposed myself on people. thanks again to those who put up with me while i tried to “live the dream”. ha
_ in the past, i used this blog to vent about my previous job. for once i like my job and the people i work with, so no complaints here. i’m not making as much as i used to, but then i’m not that stressed out either.
_life is good. i miss my mom, especially when i’m alone with my thoughts. i often wonder if she is disappointed that i didn’t turn out the way she wanted me to be. does a spirit retain their individuality through the afterlife, or does it lose its sense of “self” once it leaves the body and returns to a universal, cosmic life force?
i guess, in the deep crevices of our psyche…we still want our parents’ approval.
4:45am
rockin’ out
August 26th, 2010boogie nights style…
goddess of death & destruction
August 22nd, 2010another painting i did recently.

part XI
August 18th, 2010






the truth in cute form
August 18th, 2010
awkward stock photos
August 15th, 2010because i’m sure i will need these photos for one of my designs someday…



^ eww
yes
August 7th, 2010LULZ
August 4th, 2010“mystic”
August 1st, 2010a new painting i did recently





















